First post! It is about time...

Ever feel like there is this thing you should be doing…you know, a thing that pops in your head from time to time and taps at your soul, nags the edge of your conscious, and makes you wish you could put down this, that, and the other obligation you must attend to that moment and go after that meaningful thing you really want to do? Instead, it evaporates in the clouds of your brain, and you put it off or think of some future date where you could squeeze this thing into your schedule easier.

I often have several of these evaporating things keeping me unsettled. 

In so many ways I wish I could let less of the busy of life in and let more of the all-encompassing love I have for my Savior fill-up and pour-out. This blog is one of those meaningful things I'm not letting drift on anymore.

When trying to come up with a title, I couldn't make it relevant to today, or five years ago, or ten years in the future. I needed to think of something that is true of my whole relationship with Him. His pursuit of me is steadfast. And it is everlasting. I am not grateful of anything in my life more than this. Throughout my days here on planet earth he has pursued me, relentlessly. It is so clear as I look over the span of my life. His pursuit has not been commanding or demanding, but instead a gentle calling. It is the discontentment of my soul when I have strayed. It is the power of His Word, the only words that bring true peace to a weary mind. It is the love that overflows from my heart when I realize how truly, madly, and deeply I am loved by Him. It is the freeing power of being forgiven, my broken and unworthy self suddenly made worthy.

This week I have been meditating on our greatest commandment, to love the Lord our God with all of our heart, soul, and strength (Deuteronomy 6:5, Matthew 22:36). Why are there times where it comes so naturally that this is all I want to do, and yet other times it seems the most difficult request ever created? Why am I such a wayward daughter?

He pursues me. Always. He always loves me wholly, completely, unconditionally. I want to give the same back, but how? What is happening during those times I don’t feel like loving Him back?

I have discovered there are evil forces in this world that work against me, stealing my joy. It is my love for the world, my reliance on my temporary home instead of my dedication to my permanent place for eternity that often threatens to turn me away from the truest love of my life. When my love for Him is dimmer, my love for something of the world has been heightened. I want to choose the everlasting reciprocation of love with my Father over the temporary pleasures of this world.