“Abide in me as I abide in you. Just as the branch cannot bear fruit by itself unless it abides in the vine, neither can you unless you abide in me. I am the vine, you are the branches. Those who abide in me and I in them bear much fruit, because apart from me you can do nothing. If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask for whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. If you keep my commandments, you will abide in my love, just as I have kept my Father's commandments and abide in his love.” (John 15:4-5,7,10)
Why do I feel like I am continuously wrestling with the urge to NOT believe that God is really in control of every aspect of my life? It is like this constant attack against my spirit, my ability to trust in Him. I find myself in thought patterns, worrying about how I should handle (blank) so (blank) can happen, or how can I change my plans so I leave open the door for (blank) to occur? WHAT am I thinking? How do I get so far away from my deep-seated belief that God can do ANYTHING. I do nothing without Him. It is not up to me to control the events of my life. He could change my life in an instant if He wanted to. I am not working on this earth for an end to a means. I am not here to fill my own agenda.
I love Oswald Chamber’s little reminder for July 28th (http://www.myutmost.org/07/0728.html). I obey now; I serve now; my purpose is being fulfilled now. (Catching a pattern?) The purposes of my actions should not be rooted in my desire of certain (self-centered) future events to occur. God may have the opposite in mind for what I have for myself, so it is time I RELEASED CONTROL. My way always ends up stinkier than decaying fish chum…long dead and about to be devoured by the world. (*not so relevant fishing analogy*). My love lies in His ways, not the world’s ways. I have to trust Him in the present without getting caught up in my wants for the future. His purposes for me are that I live each day intentionally. Immediately. Each moment is precious.
It is not up to me to manipulate my situations or courses of action. I rely on Him and His word only. He has me at this place to glorify Him in everything that I do. I do what I do because I love Him, not my life on this earth. I don’t look back at mistakes made, and when I look forward, I look heavenward. Heavenward is all about Him, not me.
“Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ.” Galations 1:10
“Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.” Phillipians 3:13-14
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